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Pour out a person: of grain of rice 22 years old female interview a person: Reporter terminal interviews time: I discovered I had fallen in love with him on Feburary 27, 2008 the company of a sale that our acquaintance is in Guangdong, he is the chairman that we sell a group this, this big my boss of 4 years old is a clean-fingered Yan Xiao actually, silent the person of little sign, do not love to be contacted too much with the opposite sex, but we blend however on the job unusual tacit agreement, often be described to be flawless by the manager, say I and his disposition are complementary, it is the most perfect combination simply. I am a nature lively, can employ the person of one place with who, his humanness is low-key, do not love him expression, but I love to say love laugh loves expression, only collective place is to like music between us, it is so Orphean that he sings, hear him to sing every time I am particularly glad. such, we work in the same place one year superabundant, below his help, I also have on the job very big rise. Can go up in the career advance rapidly when, he went suddenly, because his parents is in the home to be troubled by,had a divorce, he must go back. I did not tell when he goes, still the manager tells us. That day, the manager calls me Mcdonald's, say he went, but manager of entrust of meaning of the Ceng Te before before leaving takes good care of me. I cried, it is to send the ache from the heart for the first time, cried afternoon, I know I was defeated by him thoroughly, I discover be together with him had been a kind of habit suddenly, he gives counsel, I am carried out, he clever always has exhaustless good idea, and I am him most be at ease most the executant of appreciation, I had been used to the job below the direct in him, again busy again tired also be happy, but now, did not have him suddenly, I did not know suddenly also how to should work. He went, also took away my working enthusiasm entirely it seems that, our work in the same placing and manager I let channel I cheer up, say a possibility he came back very quickly. I think display vigour very much, but my heart is early had been taken away by him, I discover I had fallen in love with him, it is so intense. I want to ask when he comes back very much, can feel embarrassed to ask for his mobile phone date to the manager again. After 7 days, pass a colleague, I obtained his mobile phone order in home town eventually. After busying one day, lie on the bed, fiddling with mobile phone, his new number is already ripe also harvest at the heart, but I phone him without courage, the mobile phone that dare not use oneself even and he is contacted. I took the friend's mobile phone to send a short message to him: "You talk not to calculate a sentence. " very fast, his reply says: "Be grain of rice? " I am alarmed and happy: How do you know? He says: Who still can act like a spoiled child before me besides you? When remembering becoming, I cried again, he says the condition is critical at that time do not have time to greet sb. No matter how contact him I already very glad, those a few days I everyday very happy, by day because the job is busy, hinder at the manager we are no-go also connection, but every night my two metropolises post a letter ceases, send till I am asleep, every time I can ask he still is answered do not come back, he firm say to oneself can come back. But one day, he is malty, interest of hair incoming letter says: "How do if didn't I go,you do? " my whats did not want to reply more he: "Won't, without giving thought to,you won't put down me. " he says rapidly again: "Cheat you, not cranky... " I set my mind at to wait for him to come back, begin our tacit and orderly collaboration afresh. His profession make me glad extremely I am waiting for him, although he went not to spend two weeks, can be so endless however to me, he says he can come back, but abrupt one day, he sends information to say he wants deal, his little one's mother's sister opened several cafes in Suzhou, think a among them to make him responsible, he hopes I can run this store together with him. I say: "Do you seek wrong person? I do not have money again. " if won't look for me for money,he says, in his word faint had some of different feeling, in my heart very glad, still can hope to listen to his personally to speak out, then, intended ask in reply he: Not be to be money, is because,that what? He says: "Are not installed did not understand, the affirmation that thinks in our heart is same. " I stimulate him again: "It is same that you know? I do not know. " he replies no longer, passed very big a little while, the mobile phone just rings afresh, press, I see such word: "Because I like you, I want to see you every day. " at that time, in my heart very excited, I want to say me with everybody very much two love, he is my boy friend, and I am his girlfriend, I am the happiest person on this world. After he leaves a month of Guangdong, I also resigned. I am one can abandon all people for love, I came home, I should say with family I have a boy friend, I should tell them, my boy friend is an outstanding boy, and I am the girl that he has loved exclusively. Return the home, mom is giving me to get together, I tell her need not, I and he has discussed, I wait for period of time to see his parents in the home, the end of the year, he will see my parents, his parents has been in urge he marries, also be in the issue that gets busy about dating for him, he says to parents he has cummer, and I went, everything is Anacreontic. I stopped 20 days in the home only, go seeing him with respect to the decision. Family is not had do not object, even all along the brother of my individual problem also says pretermission: "Do you know why so much does provincial girl go after me me disapprobation? Because do not want to face those problems, the language is illogical, habits and customs is different, much more afflictive. My boy still cares about these, you should marry yourself actually provincial, courage is quite great. " my some hesitation, at this moment, the short message that is him is in keep encouraging me: "Although we are formal love before long, but it is much better that we blend on the job, we have so good feeling base, I believe we will be happy. " these words invigorated me not only, also moved my little one's mother's sister, little one's mother's sister says: "If you want to go really, go. This boy is to like you really. " I am the love that can experience him, and I want to see him so so again. Then, disregard family object, I arrived alone his home town, although need to take the car of 4 hours only, it is with me the home is having however different agrestic and consuetudinary adjacent province. I think had love to have everything, can reach his home, I just know everything what I imagine unlike is so simple. Although he all kin friends are very enthusiastic to me, but I understand them what to to say, what can communicate exclusively with me is him, although be apart does not cross the 4 car Cheng of the hour, but the language of two provinces, custom is widely divergent, I cannot get used to the domestic atmosphere that more important is him, his parents is in all the time make a divorce, because I will just say to talk each other constrainedly, they wash each dress each, connecting rice bowl also brush each each, this lets me feel extremely uneasy. Although my home is not rich, but atmosphere is particularly good, with neighbour very ripe also sth resembling a net, I grown in keep on good terms with everyone at the expense of principle cannot understand them to connect the way of life that neighbour of face each other does not know unexpectedly really, and I am over there, besides the relative that visits him, the others when watch TV in the home frowzily namely. He considers deal, but the class that his father hopes he can receive him, so that take up a political career later, his mother supports his deal however, parents is dissident, the responsibility that accepts cafe to Suzhou went aground. He thinks an Internet bar again, he says to want to create our future with his both hands, on his rich guest, he been planninging to did not come to marry, all jumping-off place that he says to he does are me. But I appear very not feel grateful, he says his father can be me to seek a job first in place, but I do not think such, I do not think the family that lets him feels I am penniless, it is to go go to somewhere for shelter he, although want to apply for a job, I also want independent bed and board, I cannot tolerate a member that oneself regard him as the home so, person that becomes them to take care of. I think the ability that relies on my begins afresh, I say I want, at first, he thinks I am to joking, when waiting for me the 3rd times to put forward to leave, he says eventually: "I value your option. " this is him, although 100 are not willing to also won't say,come out, after living 12 days constrainedly, I left. In 12 days when get along, although live together one of these day one room, he also never affront crosses me, more moment, he sleeps on downstair sofa. I do not know he is to respect me, still love me not quite. We ended me to arrive really Zhengzhou, all start are bad, but I am glad, everything here is I am familiar, it is familiar dialect, the cooked wheaten food that I like, still have the challenge of interview to apply for a job, glad joyfullies everything. At first a week, I meet a variety of feeling of an interview, a bit progress of to apply for a job is reported to him one by one, he can encourage me in the phone, directive I, when resembling us be in Guangdong in that way, I feel very good. I had not considered our relation and future, in the environment of my Za Jinxin and job, busying and enjoying. But I or the change that felt him, he phones me actively no longer, reply even my short message also very not seasonable, he says I go, his whats were done not have, I smashed his dream. But I cannot turn round again, I go to his home, be regarded as by parents unidentified not white, come back cursory also. The family that joins me says, he is right if everything my is put on other girl body, certain and very happy, whats were arranged by him. But I go so, still make family angry, if return his home again, my pa is about to follow my disengage. Our connection is less and less, even I add him to be not accepted for QQ good friend again, go treating his rich customer, also was deleted by him about conjugal content. I do not know him why abrupt cold, I am very angry, gas is urgent under, I put forward to part company. He does not have any reaction unexpectedly, with silent to me. That evening, I cried, I do not think really, but I have no alternative, I am very the person of keen on face-saving, I care about his every little bit to me, he is very tired perhaps, I do not know to also do not want to know. One week later, I feel I just feel wronged and act rashly to part company with him, sober so long, each other should calm one's anger, but when I dial his mobile telephone, he was not received, when I am dialed again, generation of his a friend was received, apparent his hereat meaning is not received listen. I pledge in ground of firm of the firm in the heart, the telephone call that also does not make him again, we ended really. Now, although I had the job that others envies, but my love was lost by me however. Every time in the still of night when, I can recall the case that is together with him, if stay beside him,think me even, how to marry to be met now? A few days ago, little one's mother's sister says she took his individual space, discover he passes badly, let me see him. I nodded his individual homepage, those log between the lines are diffusing a kind of decadent and helpless mood, look in my heart very sad. I sent mail to give him, persuade his display vigour, the letter gives out inadequacy after a hour, he adds me on QQ for the good friend. But we did not talk about feeling, I say my present job only lightly, thereafter, he did not have a message again. If why locate in the heart,I do not know him present I, how to locate my two feeling, I want his happiness, hope he can be happy, but I do not know how to should be done however. If be to let me desertion egoistically love, I think the person in yielding all love cherishs everything what what have at the moment, had held oneself love, some moment love are a kind of feeling, when the sort of feeling was done not have, did not have with respect to what. Must be cherished. Reporter hand is written down should say, grain of rice is him understanding, her dash along, the ego assessment that enough of clarity of train of thought proves her is very accurate: Lively and expression of be apt to. Can say when me: "In your love, it seems that does he love you many somes? " she is stupefied suddenly, then expressional resembling is decided suddenly the TV appearance of case, all roaring with powerful be deathlied stillness general static replace, although be a few seconds only, before be being surpassed however the language of pile. Passed a little while, she says: "Perhaps be. " she is him understanding it seems that, but the heart that she never thinks herself seriously. She begins to examine her afresh so called love, must admit, the feeling of those love disappears, herself skill causes: She thinks him, more moment are to feel little a dependable friend; She goes seeing him, it is pure infer only to him, do not be like him already perpend their future; When she leaves, be elated more, did not notice his pain; She a person begins to hit afresh go all out, doleful when still can think he reads aloud him, but the condition of whole person is active up, and he is dejected however. Everything does not remember to the end of all life to his love because of her, a little specious even, she never experiences his love even attentively, even that esteem also is made by accident by her love her not quite. He should be to use whole idea to care her, love her, she is in, he is happy, even if have in the home too much not harmonious, she is in, the day is blue, make him OK let his thought flow freely happily to did not come, all good dream is concerned with her, however, very abruptly, she goes, drop him to be tired all alone on the decharge of love, look at oneself helplessly all dreams are like tide one layer upon layer retire. So, rejected a boy that ever went after you attentively when you, do not want blame why does he sheer you, because you smashed his dream, fragment of that one ground is already enough he was cleared away with lifetime.
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